jot

Lots of things happened to me this month... 1. After several months of long distance relationship, i finally saw my girlfriend/fiance. 2. After several months of longing for us to be back together again, i realized that all the feelings were gone and things have changed when we met at the airport. 3. After making all those plans and promises, i realized that there's more to a relationship than love alone. 4. She just gave me enough reasons not to continue our relationship. 5. I found out that my family really doesn't like my now ex-fiance. 6. After several months of waiting, our marriage was officially off. 7. My ex-girlfriend, bestest

I was still so sleepy when I get out of bed this morning. finding my way to the kitchen to get my favorite drinking glass. as i took it from the kitchen counter, all of a sudden, it exploded in my hands. i was so shocked. it was the first time in my entire life that a rather thick drinking glass really did exploded in my hands. the sound of explosion made a rather loud noise that my dad, who was out in the garage at that time, came rushing in to check what made that noise. i don't know what might have caused it. really weird but interesting.

When me and my girl started to have this long distance relationship, I wanted to believe things will be just fine. though at the back of my head were all doubts I still listened to all those people around me and of course my heart that I should believe in love and let love handle things for us... first two months was just fine, but then december came and i've been really so damn busy. the only thing that's kept us going, which was thru emails and at least 1s a week phone call, has been greatly affected. her mails were full of cold remarks stabbing me like sharp knives inside. i wanted to assure her as much as i want to assure myself that thi